Decision/Chance

In thinking of process, the weight of decision becomes paramount. There are several ways to approach the philosophy of decision-making, but in this series, the question looms: to what degree does one control one's decisions, and of what significance is that control?
Upon the completion of panel#17, the process of observation combined with dictation/record-keeping has illuminated the finer points of production. If I can pare down the basic elements of these compositions and clarify the language by which I interpret them, then I need to look deeper into why these elements exist in the forms that they do.
So many of the bygone decisions made in the evolution of these drawings are now a priori; in order to awaken these 'lost senses' of decision-making, there must begin a collection of decision making tools that will assist in the realization of every element of the composition. In order to design these tools, each and every little line, point, color, number, length, and position will have to be scrutinized and then I will have to design the decision tools to function in such a way as to allow me to have some control over the final result. To give up all control over the final image is simply unthinkable to me right now. I have to have some control over what happens on these panels in order to make images that will function successfully in an aesthetic arena.
The control that I need to have will manifest as a control over the labeling of areas of the grid (if the columns of the right and left side have the same names, their representation is half of the representation of rows that are each individually named across the two sides), of creating schemes (for example, if one color is drawn as a starting point, all subsequent colors must follow according to order), and in the design of the tools themselves (if I draw rocks from a bag, I might learn to recognize the subtle differences in the shapes of rocks that I prefer). Maybe, one day, I will learn to love and trust chance, but right now I feel as though I would just be left out; as though all of my hard-earned individual artistic knowledge and expertise on the subject were worthless (uh ohhh...not ready to explore that...).
Currently, this project is a tool for dissection, and a meditation on decision-making. It is like a child that will endlessly ask, "why?", and then about the point when the answerer will finally run out of answers.